Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

months ago:

((((((((((my ocd thoughts involve ::
my destiny,
loosing my gifts i have ( especially my artistic one)to people i despise and feel anger towards who then will use it and get famous and then il feel really upset and bad
turning into people-- this one is weird but i feel like if i think about these people in a certain way then my thoughts will send out signals ( like mentioned in the secret) and my life experiences and future scenarios will be dictated and shaped into something that makes me as close as i can be to being like that person...FUK im weird!
LUCK CHANCE CURSES JINXES--these also suck hard- there really hard and i feel like i can move bad luck into me---especially when i see an umbrella opened inside or even see a broken mirror (that really f@cks me up in fact just writing 'broken' made me wonder if i was spelling that word wrong ( if it needed a 'c' before the 'k' and therefore if i was 'braking' the word mirror and because its still a 'break' of a 'mirror' in some form if i would get the bad luck. i no i wont tho..i had to type that so that i did not get the bad luck!))))))))))))))

i wrote that ages ago and was going to delete it but i decided to keep it up as it demonstrates the amount of change that happened in my life recently. with help from others and this site im alot more happy!

running in the park to my i pod
goin out to restaurants with people i love
sex and philosophising over what constitutes the meaning behind our sexuality and sexual expressions
sunny days, strong smelling flowers
my nintendos
imagination

feeling awkward in social situations - will change that :)
when people insult othersin general and based on a stereotype- asian, wog, gay etc
fear itself

jazz,
blues ,
hip hop,
rnb,
pop...,
soul,
rock sometimes,
lounge,
dance!!!

into magazines alot actually. if the book has pictures then theres more chance il read it

i watched forest gump recently and fell in love with the movie even more
however my fav movies are: star wars, old disney films and 90's style 'i dont take myself too seriousely movies, yet i treat the role of entertaining with interity'..like major payne or mrs doubtfire :)

dancing!
running in the park
singing
playin the piano
listening to my ipod
goin to the gym

GLBT with OCD