"HH the Dalai Lama: This is my simple religion. There is no need for temples; no need for complicated philosophy. Our own brain, our own heart is our temple; the philosophy is kindness. "
I´m so glad I found this community. For the last 3 years or so I´ve felt completely alone with my problems, this is what I have been trying to find :) My life today is really simple and complex at once. I´m socially isolated and been so for almost 3 years now. I had a good run from 2002 to 2005 when I was in hospital, the various wards but now I´ve come to really dislike them since I´ve often been subjected to violence but of course they have many good sides as well.
I have ADD, BDD, SAD, OCD, depression, health anxiety, personality disorder, memory problems, fear of flies. Frustrating after 2 and a half years constant treatment in hospital, I am now on benefits and live in a tiny apartment downtown in Reykjavík. It´s like I´m allergic to life, most of it, I´m stuck, see a psychiatrist every two weeks and am on five different meds. Actually I´ve started seeing this psychologist, she´s done more for me in four sessions than my doc for four years, now for the first time I have hope my ocd is going away, well at least the worst part, I now really think I can beat this ocd, I had lost all hope. Just dream of being happy and of good health.
But I´d like to think I´m not all serious, I try to have fun when I get the chance and see the positive in things :)
INFJ - "Author". Strong drive and enjoyment to help others. Complex personality. 1.5% of total population.
Vids I took, forgot to zoom in on Sigurrós which sucks:/:
LIKES
Like darkness so december is my favorite month in Iceland cause it´s dark all day. Like open minded people, sensitive, smiling, honest, kind, loving, caring, people who go out of their way to help others, animals, I love music, being accepted just the way I am now.
Don´t like it when it´s bright outside, don´t like arrogance, prejudice, bullying,cyberbullying, reading with ADD, psychiatric wards, medication, people staring, war, discrimination, stereotypes, violence, isolation, mental illnesses, not being fit, how it´s difficult for me even to write or say a few words to people I don´t know very well, how I aways have to censor or edit everything I say or write, how anything I say is never good enough for me and that I fear it´s not good enough for the people I talk to, pain, people who see others in desperate need and do nothing being in a position to help, parents who neglect their children, parents who don´t hug their kids, how insecure I am, rejection, grown up people who act like inmature, cruel kids and make fun at the expense of others, it´s pathetic, it disgusts me. Hypocrisy, disrespect, people who think they´re better than me, people who underestimate me, judgemental people, narrowmindedness,
hey
how
have
u
been
doing?
miss
u
lately..just
got
a
cast
off
my
leg
that
I've
had
on
for
6
weeks-thank
God
thats
over
with!!
That
was
somewhat
greuling
to
say
the
least...whats
new
with
u?
OFFLINE
'It is by going down into the abyss that we recover the treasures of life. Where you stumble, there lies your treasure. -Joseph Campbell
hey
addi,
i
like
what
youve
done
with
your
profile,
its
highly
entertaining.
especially
with
the
prank
calls
XD
i
listened
to
the
arnold
swarzenegger
one.
i
never
grow
tired
of
that!
:D
and
i
also
like
the
animations
you
have
in
your
headline,
theyre
real
good
:)
the
fact
you
have
a
positive
attitude
gives
me
great
satisfaction,
because
i
one
day
would
like
to
have
my
life
back
to
how
it
was
before,
and
its
people
like
you
who
inspire
me
:)
take
care.
PolytheneBoy
OFFLINE
Step by step I'm getting there... slowly but surley!
As
to
your
comment...yeah
we're
a
cute
family.
Round
smiley
people,
that
would
descibe
us!
lol
I
was
wondering
where
you
went!
Life
has
been
to
you,
yes?
OFFLINE
The most important kind of freedom is to be what you really are. You trade in your reality for a role. ...You give up your ability to feel, and in exchange, put on a mask. Jim Morrison
Wow!
You've
spent
some
time
on
your
site!!
:)
Hey,
I
just
wanted
to
thank
you
for
the
kind
words
you
posted
in
my
guestbook.
I've
been
dealing
with
this
for
so
long
by
myself.
While
I'm
very
sorry
others
have
to
deal
with
it
too,
I'm
extremely
greatful
that
this
network
and
people
like
you
are
out
there
to
help!!
Drop
me
a
line
anytime,
I
hope
I
can
one
day
be
as
helpful
and
encouraging
to
you
as
you
have
been
to
me
after
just
one
post!
New
and
browosing
Love
all
the
interesting
aspects
of
your
site
...and
here's
too
a
small
worl
...
I
graduated
in
Iceland
!
My
father
was
statioed
at
the
Nto
base
in
Keflavik
!
Too
cool
Be
well
hope
we
get
to
chat
one
day
Love
the
Icelandic
ponies
and
the
night
lights
in
the
sky
,,,hot
spring
...sort
of
missed
the
trees
Its
been
over
20
years
HAve
more
grown
since
then
BE
well
Wanda
OFFLINE
Not all who wander are lost ... some are just off the beaten path
Korn, Slipknot, System Of A Down, Enya, Disturbed, Metallica, Prodigy, Coldplay, Sigurrós, Queen, Sinead O´connor, Hillsong music (gospel, I find peace in listening to this particular band),
Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion
Don't be afraid to be weak
Don't be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence
If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny
Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence
That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence
"Mad World"
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
IF THE SONG DOES NOT LOAD JUST GO OFF THE PAGE AND THEN LOAD IT AGAIN!
BOOKS
I collect classic literature, I love Dostoevski and Leo Tolstoj but the ADD and all the other sh*t makes it pretty much impossible to read.
MOVIES
Television: My name is Earl, Balls of steel, Everybody loves Raymond, Chappelle´s show and more.
Nevermind the bodybuilding vids that come after :/
HOBBIES
Cycling, Soccer, Music, Films, Literature, Computer games, My internet pages, People, Family, Mountainneering, Meditation, Jogging, Photography, Cooking, Travelling,
Dr. Bhante Gunaratana, author of Mindfulness in plain English. My psychologist gave me a short version of his book she put together about Mindfulness which is a part of CBT. Here he talks about many various things we can learn a lot from(the last 20 videos, the order is from last to left if you want to see them in the right order). You can read his book for free online, just go here: http://www.vipassana.com/meditation/ , I highly recommend it,this is a psychological meditation:
